I don't know why but I really feel the need to dedicate this post to someone whom I have so much to thank for, even though he barely knows I exist because the only words we communicate were only a few sentence long. 

I still remember the very first time I saw you, it was the first day of NDP 2008 Silat training at Bedok Camp. You were there, beside me, in green tshirt and black watch and knowing that you were from the National team, I thought you were a stuck up just because you didn't help me at all when I was lost with all the new steps. It was on the 26th April, the day I decided to join NDP thanks to Asy and Tin...and also, it was the day that idk, I actually fall for you. Maybe, maybe because there's something about you that makes me have butterflies in my stomach, the way you did the silat moves so perfectly and the way you smile seemed so sincere. That was when I thought my first impression of you was wrong.

Because of you, I looked forward to training everyday. That day when I came early for training, I happened to hear you say the Azan and read the Quran and that's when I know that I actually liked the right guy. 

Because of you, I had unnecessary butterflies in my stomach. I doubt you remember but I still remember vividly how that one day, you went into our bus because the National team bus was full, and just nice, there were two empty seats beside me (I was sitting with Asy). My heart started to beat so fast at the thought of seeing you and when you sat at that seat and faced me, I swear I felt like fainting. I was on the verge of screaming but I really tried to keep calm. You asked me if I would like to see a magic trick and I was like, "Okay sure" but deep inside my heart only God knows how bbafkwabgfoqwig I was when you were talking to me, having those eye contacts. Seeing you smile and laughed made me died a lil inside. Sigh, only God knows how much I liked you that time.

Because of you, I came out with all those random questions just so I could talk to you. Remember how I gathered up my courage that time to ask you if my senior was your cousin? I don't know what was up with me that I decided to ask you that all of a sudden but thanks for answering it back despite how random it was because we both were going to the water cooler ><

For 4 years..I kept this feelings inside me, not telling you how I felt and even though I am way over you already, I still feel regret not confessing to you. 

Now that you are gone, forever, I could only keep you in my prayers.

Thank you Shahrin, for all those good times. Liking you was hard because it was only one sided but at least I know I will never regret liking you. When I heard you passed away on Saturday, I was so speechless and thought it was only just a dream. When I saw your friends' tweeted about you, about how you told them to take care of themselves a day before your death, I started to break down. When I read the news about you taking your parents out for dinner on Friday night, not ordering anything but just looking at them made me break down all over again.

"They say you just have this feeling that you won't be there for long...so you randomly remind people you love to take care of themselves and when you're gone, people will suddenly remember that you told them to take care"

-Asy

You were so young, still have so many things to do - work, marry, have kids, grow old together with your future wife but I guess God loves you so much that He wants you to be with Him fast. You were a good guy Shahrin, I know you were, from the very first day I saw you. Which is why I liked you and now....all that's left are memories of you and I. 

May Allah bless your soul, Muhd NurShahrin Bin Shahrudin.

I don't know why but I really feel the need to dedicate this post to someone whom I have so much to thank for, even though he barely knows I exist because the only words we communicate were only a few sentence long. 

I still remember the very first time I saw you, it was the first day of NDP 2008 Silat training at Bedok Camp. You were there, beside me, in green tshirt and black watch and knowing that you were from the National team, I thought you were a stuck up just because you didn't help me at all when I was lost with all the new steps. It was on the 26th April, the day I decided to join NDP thanks to Asy and Tin...and also, it was the day that idk, I actually fall for you. Maybe, maybe because there's something about you that makes me have butterflies in my stomach, the way you did the silat moves so perfectly and the way you smile seemed so sincere. That was when I thought my first impression of you was wrong.

Because of you, I looked forward to training everyday. That day when I came early for training, I happened to hear you say the Azan and read the Quran and that's when I know that I actually liked the right guy. 

Because of you, I had unnecessary butterflies in my stomach. I doubt you remember but I still remember vividly how that one day, you went into our bus because the National team bus was full, and just nice, there were two empty seats beside me (I was sitting with Asy). My heart started to beat so fast at the thought of seeing you and when you sat at that seat and faced me, I swear I felt like fainting. I was on the verge of screaming but I really tried to keep calm. You asked me if I would like to see a magic trick and I was like, "Okay sure" but deep inside my heart only God knows how bbafkwabgfoqwig I was when you were talking to me, having those eye contacts. Seeing you smile and laughed made me died a lil inside. Sigh, only God knows how much I liked you that time.

Because of you, I came out with all those random questions just so I could talk to you. Remember how I gathered up my courage that time to ask you if my senior was your cousin? I don't know what was up with me that I decided to ask you that all of a sudden but thanks for answering it back despite how random it was because we both were going to the water cooler ><

For 4 years..I kept this feelings inside me, not telling you how I felt and even though I am way over you already, I still feel regret not confessing to you. 

Now that you are gone, forever, I could only keep you in my prayers.

Thank you Shahrin, for all those good times. Liking you was hard because it was only one sided but at least I know I will never regret liking you. When I heard you passed away on Saturday, I was so speechless and thought it was only just a dream. When I saw your friends' tweeted about you, about how you told them to take care of themselves a day before your death, I started to break down. When I read the news about you taking your parents out for dinner on Friday night, not ordering anything but just looking at them made me break down all over again.

"They say you just have this feeling that you won't be there for long...so you randomly remind people you love to take care of themselves and when you're gone, people will suddenly remember that you told them to take care"

-Asy

You were so young, still have so many things to do - work, marry, have kids, grow old together with your future wife but I guess God loves you so much that He wants you to be with Him fast. You were a good guy Shahrin, I know you were, from the very first day I saw you. Which is why I liked you and now....all that's left are memories of you and I. 

May Allah bless your soul, Muhd NurShahrin Bin Shahrudin.